i'm still an animal

So... am I the only one that frequently wonders about what they'll name their children? I always have a few favorite names picked out. They change about every couple months.

For a long time I liked Aisling. It's pronounced ASH-ling, for those who don't know much about old Irish names... which is most of the world. I still do think it's very cute, but I have to wonder what my family (especially Katie) would think if I named my daughter Aisling. They'd probably think I'm some kind of weirdo who tortures their children with horribly obscure names just to be unique. In actuality, I've read several books with characters named Aisling, and I just think it's adorable.

Then I was determined to keep Grace Harper. Doesn't it just roll off the tongue so smoothly? It's like a gorgeous celebrity name. Can't you see her now? Blonde curls and luminous green eyes? Gracie Harper Lastname. Partly inspired by the song Gracie Girl (or whatever it's called) by Ben Folds with Harper added in because it's just so Hollywood. I swear it's up there next to Marilyn Monroe and Lydia Montenegro as far as delicious names go.

At the moment, I'm fixated with "Ree". I just think it's so cute. Can't you see little Ree? Dark hair, dark eyes. She's gorgeous. Of course, Ree could just be a nickname. Think of the possibilities! Risa, Sonrisa, Riana, Ariana, Rosie, Lori. I particularly like Risa and Ariana.

These, of course, are only the girl names. For a long time now, I've really loved the names Henry and Gregory. Of course, I can't have two children with names that both end in 'y'. I could shorten Gregory to just Gregor, though, which is just as good. Henry is inspired in part by the main character in Faerie Wars (excellent series of books, in my opinion) and also a supporting character in the Gregor the Overlander series. Obviously, my affinity for the name Gregor comes from there. Then there are the bazillion other names that I love: Howard, Mark, Lucas, Vaughn, Jameson/James, Tobias, and Fletcher for boys, and then Cheyenne, Lucille, Kate, Ofelia, Oriel/Orielle, Esther, Finley, Sonora, Raine, Vivienne/Vivian, and Adele for girls.

So many choices... Odds are I'll end up marrying some guy that has names already picked out and will not budge for anything.

i don't love you, i'm just passing the time

You know what irritates me? The fact that I'm good at everything. I'm good at everything, but I'm not excellent at any one thing. Sure I can draw decently, I can play the violin, I can sing, Math comes relatively easy to me, as well as English and Reading. Science as well. I can hold my own at Halo. But would I consider myself a pro at any of these things? No. Because I'm not. I'm not proud of being well-rounded because I want to be amazing at one, specific skill. Everyone is supposed to have a strength, right? Well what's mine?

you could love me if i knew how to lie

Today is the second day of spring break! So far I've spent my time very wisely by doing very productive activities (sleeping in, playing video games, watching Bones, etc.). It's very likely that the rest of my spring recess will be spent doing as such because I have about 2.5 friends.

I guess it's pretty fair to say that my best friend is Zach. Out of all my friends, he's the one I see and talk to the most. The only problem is that he tends to act really.. overeager. Like a puppy, sort of. I'm afraid that he likes me a lot more than I like him. I regard our relationship as strictly platonic, but I think that he wishes it was more than that, and it scares me. Well, no. Scared isn't the right word. Irritated is more accurate. I get irritated, then angry, and I lash out at him and avoid him for a couple days and then I feel bad and try to act nice and it starts all over again. It's kind of something that happens whenever I spend too much time with any one person. They start to annoy me beyond belief.

Next on my list of friends would be Eric and Kate. Eric is the person I actually consider to be my best friend, but I'm not really sure he counts seeing as he's my older brother. Plus I don't get to spend as much time with him because he works nights. When he's free, I'm at school, and when I'm free, he's at work. I'm hoping to take advantage of my free time during spring break to spend some time with him.

I really love Kate to death, too. I was resentful at first because I regarded her as a succubus that was stealing my brother away, but I got over it, and now we're friends, and I'm really glad we are. We don't always agree, but that's okay, cause talking to her is super fun. We both like movies and watch them pretty frequently. We love to read, so we share books. I regret ever having harbored ill feelings toward her.

Anyway, those are my thoughts for right now. Stay classy, San Diego.

am i free or am i tied up

I think this is the third time I've created a blog. I'm confident that this one is the best yet. I figured I might as well since I created a blog specifically designed to document my Personal Progress (found here).

I'm not really good at this blogging thing, to be honest. I tend to put too much detail into my thoughts or vary too much in subject to really make sense. I guess that's the price I have to pay for having an insanebrain.

I'm too lazy to really describe my life up to this point to anyone who doesn't know me. Besides, it's unlikely that anyone who doesn't already know me would read this anyway, so there really is no point. I'm just going to start with today. Cheerio!